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Trust: Say What You Mean, Mean What You Say
So…I just got in from work. I kicked off my kitten heels, and jumped right in front of my MacBook. I have something on my mind that I want to share, and I hope my readers can relate because this is coming from the realest place.
I’ve been tying to preach the importance of Trust in all relationships (intimate and otherwise). To me Trust all starts with the old adage “Say What You Mean, Mean What You Say.” If you can’t master this then, you can’t be trusted 100% – point, blank, period. Also fundamental when establishing trust is sound principles. It’s important that in all relationships (again, intimate or otherwise) that we establish, fully understand and value certain principles.
Lately I’m finding it hard to say “I Trust You”…and I honestly believe that the reason for this is the absence of the above listed foundations. I’ve been jaded, needless to say, but I am forgiving and I am trying to get passed it and build trust in the people around me again. And I am not going to lie, it is damn hard! Especially when we set goals and targets, and anticipate milestones, only to be let down. Its…HARD!
I feel like I am slowly running out of ways to get the people around me to understand this…and to step their game up in this regard.
Anyway, thanks so much for reading. I hope you all have a wonderful evening. I’m off to unwind and prepare dinner. Until next time…
With Love,
Zindzi.
Dear Diary…February 18th 2013
Today is Monday February 18th 2013…
I am home today. Didn’t go to work because I really feel like crap. Feels like I’ve been hit by a bus – literally. My body is hurting. Honestly, it’s a combination of 2 things – the nasty-a** bug/cold going around and mental stress – I suffer from headaches a lot. Largely the cold, but I feel mentally DRAINED! Not the best place to be given that the last compulsory module of my MBA started last week, and I am already a week behind – and let’s not forget my full time job! The past 2 weeks were hectic at work! My boss was out of office during that time and I had to work twice as hard to keep things in check in my department. Great experience, just felt like the wrong time though. I survived. Got all required tasks done – and then some. Yay to me! 
On the not so great side of things, I feel like I’ve lost the focus and control – and by extension, independence – in my life. My eating has gone back to what it used to be around this time last year – HORRIBLE! Although I haven’t gained a lot of weight, food is still my kryptonite, and the sooner I find my own way to control that the better I’ll be. I see a WW re-sign up in my very near future.
No more details. No more fussing. I need to think of solutions, which is exactly what I’m going to do.
I gotta get my issh together, and FAST too!
Lots of Love,
Zindzi.
Dear Diary…January 6th 2012
Dear Diary,
It’s the first week of the year, first week back at work, first week of bad news….well, not bad but potentially life-changing news. I am trying to take it one day at a time and lay down a plan in the event that it does change my life. Not particularly pleased, but sa pou faire? (kweyol to english: what to do?) but I suppose everything in its own time. There is an ultimate master plan much greater and much grander than yours and mine that will inevitably unveil itself – but it never hurts to be prepared. So I continue to pray about it and I also have the comfort in the arms and on the shoulders of my family and loved ones.
All will be well.
Zindzi.
DIARY ENTRY!: Jul. 9th 2009
Heeeeeeyyy Everybody? How’s everyone doing today? Yesterday I was sick!! Damn those tummy cramps. I’m well now thanks to the BIG MAN! And…
Today I am very happy to announce that I received my grades for this year and I PASSSSSED!! Which means I’m moving onto my final year w/ no referrals! 
I’m really relieved now that I’m in the know – the waiting and waiting and waiting is the hard part. October will mark the begining of my final year of my Undergrad study at university and to quite honest I’m looking forward to settling in and giving this very crutial year all I have. I want to graduate at the top nothing less. EXCELLENCE 24/7 & Nothing Less! I know it won’t be easy, nobody said it would but I think as long as I am dedicated and motivated and I know that I’m passionate about whatever I’m working at, all will be well. So Im not scared…rather anxious actually.
For all my academics out there working hard to get the good grades, let me here you say “EXCELLENCE 24/7 & Nothing Less“!
So in April I jet-setted off to L.A (BEST TRIP EVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR), right now I’m in St. Lucia but can you guess where Ms.Zindzi is headed next? Hmmm….Imma let y’all in a lil’ later.
SHOUT OUT to my cousin Elaine for the comment and for pointing me in the right direction – Thanks a milli! 
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIRI!!!!!! I know we spoke on the phone but you know I had to shout you out too! Love yah…Miss yah! Be back soooooon.
PS: Y’all thought these DIARY ENTRY posts would never return huh? ha! Proved ya wrong…Don’t forget to cdheck out ST. LUCIA CARNIVAL 2k9. If you aint there then you’re no where! And also Don’t forget to Follow me on Twitter @MsZindzi
Mood: Good!
DIARY ENTRY!: Mar. 9th 2009
Not a huge fan of GaGa’s music but I kinda feel this way today – “There’s Nothing else I can say…” I’m a bit speechless, suffering from writers block, AND I’m feeling down – EVERYTHING is up today! KMT! [Kiss My Teeth] It really aint a good day. I just wanna lay down, sleep and I wanna wake up tomorrow and hope that maybe the fact that it’s another day will make me feel better!! And besides, I have a lot to complete before Friday rolls around, so I hope my mood shapes up, and quick too, cause I need to WORK WORK WORK! And I can’t do that if I’m down – OR actually – I just had a thought, when I’m mad I work harder, not necessarily faster but harder. Hmmmm, Maybe I should start my work tonight…Hmmm I just might do!
Mood: MAD
xoxo, Ms.Zindzi