I Hate Feeling Like…
I hate feeling like I have problems and my friend(s) never do…you know?
Don’t misunderstand me…
What I mean is this: if ever I have a problem I wanna share (which is just about everything anything EXCEPT family-related issues) I’d share it with X but when X is having problems (evident through tweets, or status updates, etc.) he/she never talks to me about them. Unless, of course, I ask…even then there’s no guarantee.
What’s that about?! I mean, I just hate that one-way feeling that I get from my friends. Is it that you never have problems? (Sincerely doubt that!) Or you just don’t wanna talk about them at all? At that time? Or just not with me?
If it’s the latter, then I’ll have to start keeping my ish to myself! Because if we’re supposed to be friends then I expect us to co-exist on a two-way street. You know what I mean? :-/
No love lost or anything severe like that…I’m just saying…I gotta be more private with my feelings and keep things to myself, if the people I trust enough to share those feelings with won’t share theirs with me.
The funny part is, I get that vibe from the people I hold nearest and dearest. Sad huh? I know. But that’s females for ya! Lol.
And Yes, I can laugh about it because to me it’s not that serious i.e. I don’t love them any less or hate them. I just have to fix how I relate to them, and what I share with them.
Or as Grenadians would say, I have to ‘watch how I move wit dem’ – Lol.
Simple as!
And let me say this I’m not disappointed in them nor do I feel let down by them because I almost knew from the start that that’s how they were. A part of me was just hoping that maybe I was wrong about them, and that eventually it would be this two-way friendship I desired but that’s just how some people are.
Or that just how they are towards me anyway. Loool.
Their lost, not mine! I’m a great friend in that regard! I consider myself the best ear and shoulder! I believe in listening first, and then speaking after but I only give advice when asked. Hmm…
But then, is there even a point in calling it a “friendship” when its one-way?…Urgh, that’s for another post. I don’t even wanna entertain that thought right now!
That is all.
Luv,
Ms.Zindzi
