Dear readers,

What I am about to say may be a bit confusing, a bit contradictory or even maybe a bit unusual. Just try to understand where I’m coming from. Or if you’re really confused feel free to email me your questions.

On Monday a female middle-aged public servant was found brutally murdered at her residence. At first it was speculated she was raped and stabbed and left to cling to little life. I was stunned, shocked. Never in my wildest dreams did I see such happening to some one of her caliber. Not that I am trying to insinuate that such happens to anyone in particular. But later forensic investigation stated that she had not been raped. I had read bits and pieces of news articles, heard news stories a few here and there but did not pay too much attention to the case.

Little did I know, my previous interest would be evoked by the unthinkable!!

On Wednesday police apprehended a suspect in connection to the homicide. I had heard that around four suspects were apprehended. Not until a friend, last night, brought to my attention that the main suspect was a 15 year old boy…..SIGH…I was shocked cold. All sorts of thought flew through my mind about our political instability and our youth, and gripping chills ran through my body. I was once again interested in this particular case.

Believe it or not, I wanted the harshest punishment conceivable for this boy. I hated the thought of him doing what he was accused of doing.

On the instant that I saw his picture, I felt attached. Wanted to cry, not even sure why. I felt the need to get to know him. I don’t want to hear the manipulated news stories anymore, or eye witnesses’ accounts, or statistics or his family situation. I want to hear from him; what were his thoughts, intentions, and motive, anything there is to know. I felt a dire need to know him!

Screw that fact that he was raised in a broken home (with an absent father). I know too many children raised in such a situation that have never committed such a heinous act. So its time the media finds some other attribute for his behaviour. I no longer want to hear their polished accounts or twisted stories. I feel the need for the real deal, from the main suspect.

I remember sometime ago a boy around this similar age was wanted for several robberies. I empathized with him. I wanted medical help and attention for him. Quite contrary sentiment this time! Although I am deeply worried about our youth, I firmly believe that this particular 15 year old should get the maximum punishment-not for his age- but for his act. He needs legal help!

However, that does not eliminate my strong connection. I feel connected but outlandish enough, I can’t say on what level. I know we are not related by blood, we have never met, I don’t know the guy from Adam! But I want to. I am seriously interested in his thoughts at that moment. What did he go there for? What was he hoping to accomplish?

For such an act this guy is going to spend the rest of his life paying. If the justice system does not give him maximum time for his crime, society will beat the crap out of him, mentally. That is, through scorn and reject.

This is as bizarre to me as it may be to you. I am not sure why I feel such a strong connection, but I do. I think this is a sign. I have always been extremely passionate about one day being of inspiration and assistance to youths of all colours, classes and creeds. And my interest in this case just serves as a light right down my alley.

This young man is still sitting on my mind. And I WILL seek to find out why. I need to find out WHY! I’ve made a promise to myself, that if he gets time at prison, I will make it my duty to visit him.

….sigh….I know! It was a bit confusing but I just had to get it off my chest, had to let you guys know. I will keep you updated as to my progress.

Thanks for your attention.

Yours truly,

Zindzi

Journey beyond Until…